Times changes so much... how much has changed since the first week of July 2011..? wouldn't have imagined such day would come, when I would be nostalgic for those days..
I have tried so much to adapt myself to these changing circumstances... alas.. never got attuned to it. Have I asked too much for myself? Do I yearn too much for myself?
Will I ever get a chance to redeem myself? No one should go through this? Where do I lie? what will be the outcome of the things going ahead? sometimes I wonder, how life would have been, if other decision would have taken? I do not have guts to go through this and did not have guts to go through that....?
Sometimes, I feel, what happened was right.. not right for me, right for the other person.. Any one being with me will have to go through lot of pain. considering how weak I am, its important that same weakness does not have a legacy... (and yet I have the ambition of leaving behind a legacy... how ironical..!!??)
Sometimes, I wonder, have times really changed? or the time has changed and I have been static for long time... how dumb of me, always yearned for sweet feelings and then precisely rejected it. How would have other one felt? destroyed.. yes exactly destroyed would have been the reaction...
Guts to see other back on own feet.. facing the world... and where I am..? not able to face even simple things...can't fight emotions.. can't resist urges... that feeling of overwhelming..?
Sometimes, I wonder, what circumstances lead the other person to take such decision? What..!!
Times have changed.. isn't it? or No, they haven't.. just I forgot to move ahead...
Let me lie here.. let me lie here for a while... Let me lie here for a while in the expectation.. let me lie here for a while in the expectation that nothing's changed.. Let me lie here for a while in the expectation that nothing's changed and this is just dream about to end....
Let me lie here...
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