There was a time, when all the events were being recalled, revisited everyday... the best way to help yourself was to so called "detoxify". In this case, it was "dememorise" and what when looked back after 6 months from last post...Its nothing, its the same story... nothing's dememorised. just what has happened is long break will lead to just long post..
would have been better, if the time span was reduced between two posts.. now its just too much to write in one post..
So long being so enchanted that disenchanting process just does not work.. the question remains.. what about future? is it going to be this way? or is there something better in expected?
But then,, whatever is better in definition may not mean good or better in other's terms?
When I look to the future, I see more happiness and more pain.. happiness that things are getting better for someone and more pain that this could have been together with me...
Anyways, one cannot change some things.. one has to strive to make things better for other...
yes, memories remain, they hit back every day, they water it every day, they cause pain everyday.. so what... this is what was chosen.. chosen with the knowledge that this pain will remain forever.. irrespective of what to be done..
People say.. everyone has to move on.. come on.. Everybody is not everybody, everybody is unique and will remain to have their own ways, preferences, etc..
sometimes, i just read the things that I have written and try to reminisce the situation and then really feel, nothings changed.. its the same old way.. just packaged differently..
No.. lets wait.. lets not have that long post... will revisit the post again...
