To be or not to be...

The question was bang on....when there is no love lost (not exact words), why not ask out of it.. why continue just for the heck of it..? Who are we fooling around...?

Is it valid to answer that those values do not exist anymore....if they don't. .then why do we carry its carcass. .? Why have the facade?  Has maintaining status become more important than rocking the boat?  Has social stigma become more important than one's wellbeing? Is society not for us or are we for the society..is this whole set up not to make us happy?  Was not the purpose of this institution? If yes..then why are we afraid of it?

What are we afraid of?  Who are we afraid of? 

while answering one question, we rely on the theory that we have to do what keeps us happy.. we have to keep enjoying our life....  and then in the next instance we just change the definition of that happiness..we say the old way of life does not exist...the old values are no more...the things once considered as virtues have been redefined... now everyone wants space. ..freedom...individuality.. (even the word contains duality).

Somewhere we are being hypocrites... somewhere down inside we are not ready to face the truth.. we do not want to leave our comfort zone....

This needs to be answered... I reiterate it is always better to "ask out", than continue with the tirade with the false pretense that this is what I want..this is what  is the truth... this is reality... no..it is not so...
And this question has its mrrits...the initial silence did reveal acceptance of this question... when will we stand for it?  When will we take decision regarding it.. 

TIME will come when this question will be raised again....at that time not to be spared till I get satisfactory answer to it
AND I MEAN IT......

Grief

How much of this should be served at one go..!? Will this story never end? What is the basis? 

Or just destined to face this one after other..

Sometimes one wonders how to converge such situation with philosophy that to embrace all situations and find peace in all... How does one do that?

Or is such theory a consolation so as to get accustomed to that.. and this continues forever...

Comfort Zone achieved, Loving Family, Established Career, Gud heart and Great brain... What else is required... So right on point... Great Goals.. Great Achievement....Great Life.... So Great...

Still it lingers.. still it feels, still it aches.. still feel of nothing achieved.. still dislike (hatred, apathy..etc) for all things... how come this still remains.. how come there is no end to it..

WISH...!!!

'How I wish' would be the coveted words ever heard..
How I wish things could have been other way...how I wish the head resting on shoulders should be ever there.. how I wish to share all the tidbits of every day life.. how I wish to speak sweet nothings... how I wish to argue over petty things.. how I wish to get angry over those things... how I wish to shower praises for all little things...how I wish to discuss all irrelevant things and still be happy about it... how I wish to share all that happening around... how I wish to be part of all things in your life... how I wish to provide comfort during all sweet happenings... how I wish to share all sweetness.. all roughness. .. all.... how I wish to share all and be part of all shares...

How I wish to get another chance..how I wish to relive once again....

HOW I WISH ..... aren't those most coveted words....

Secrets

And now comes the era of secrets... this is the first step... lets see what comes next.. probably it will be more secrets...
How did it come to this..? One would say this too shall pass.. what shall it pass to? The gap... would it keep increasing?  In reality, it would. Why it should not..? One cannot be reason for it and then crib about its consequences..
What it has come to..? What will it come to? Will we grow apart? This is something I would hate to see before I die. I did rather die to see that day.. sometimes it feels like whole life has come to naught... nothing of consequence exists anymore.. what still goes on is a process.. a mere routine, which we cannot avoid, which has to be adhered to. Which has to go on irrespective the purpose, consequence, results. ...

AND DO IT CONTINUES. ...

Peace (Cont..)

They say, when you really love, you eventually get the true love.... so is it really so? and if you do not get, you have to let it go... then why is it so difficult to let go? 

Why this is so difficult..? will it ever be possible? will it really give peace to all..? is it not better then to leave all and go far away where all these thoughts are not to bother... well they will bother you but all others.. as time will heal all.. pains will be forgotten.. no more botheration to anyone..better for all.. 

Peace has to prevail.. there has to be no pain for anybody... everybody has the right to be happy.. making sad all for one is not acceptable.. it is better to keep all happy at the expense of one.. and this sounds to be best of all plans..

SO BE IT.....

Memories...

However we try, we cannot get rid of memories.. these are the ones which trigger a hell lot of emotions...

What in the heaven prompted to have capability of memories with all their accessories. ....? Would memories have been better without emotions embedded in it?
Who knows the answer to these questions...??
May be the answer is selective to the type of memories..  no one wants memories with sad emotions. . Every one wants them with happy emotions.... and call them happy thoughts.

Sometimes they are overwhelming enough to trigger the feeling of extreme sadness with urge to end this all this at very moment.....

How the hell would one resist that....

PEACE....

Care.....desire....Love...longing...desperation...angst....despair and then peace...

I have made peace with myself... After such a long arduous journey, I finally accept (not completely found though) peace. Peace with self, peace with all around me... Yes, I agree, that small part will always be reserved that can be invoked anytime, It will always be for gudness of everyone..

No more hurting anyone, as have always believed, it is better to hurt one than all the ones that will never hurt you.. so for them, for all, peace is necessary.

The epic of our times is to begin.. the story is yet to continue.. in another form, in another place, in another circumstance...

Everything happens gud with gud people.... 

Gudness begets gudness. A time will come, when this gudness will need to be invoked... at that time, an another arduous journey will start.. 

This time, the journey will be of friendship.. and that will last eternity....

No more apologies, no more thanks, when friend in need is friend indeed...

I hope whatever happens.. talk does not stop.. talk continues... give it some time but talk for sure...

Solutions

Who says there are no solutions... remember what we learnt, when we were in school.. looking at the spider trying again and again to reach the top inspired the king to regain his kingdom...

Yes, everything is possible and everything will be fine. There is no need to panic and get irritated... Yes everyone makes mistakes and to err is human.

sometimes, one does feel that how all this will change or get rectified? This feeling is quite obvious when the circumstances are not appearing to be favourable.. Recall, there was a time, when even expressing this feeling was fraught with lot of uncertainty. That moment passed, things became clearer...

And then muddier too.. they will again get cleared.. solutions will yet again arise...happiness will again prevail..

I want to believe that THE STORY IS NOT YET FINISHED, IF ALL IS NOT WELL...

And I am certain, all will be well.... I am ready to wait.. wait till eternity...

More Talk..

So much to say, so much to listen and yet no time for it... yearning for this is never gonna cease..whatever the situation.. is this wrong? What to do now? is there no solution to these issues? at some point, doubts arise about what is right & what is wrong?

Why do things go wrong? what can't they go right? Why not for some time, all things happen as per our wishes..?

Its getting more complicated by the day.. hope not to make it difficult for anybody... but then I am selfish.. or say want to be selfish.. I want it.. need it.. desperately need it.. or may be will do something, which one shouldn't...

Crazier Thoughts or just REAL..

Thoughts are just getting crazier by the day.. Just can't handle this anymore... Seems making happy... if so then why not make it happier.. yeah that will be only for few while many will not be... But that is just only short term. 

In the long term all will turn fine.. Just because one is not crying does not mean only happiness prevails.. who knows what sadness prevails behind those smiling lips.. who knows what travesty on carries to maintain that facade..

I recall the same question "Does our  days of caring and sharing deserve this?" I really do not know the answer.. the thoughts that bog me down have really hard answers.. the question then remains, do we have the wherewithal to face the consequences.. the answers are not always pretty..

In the pursuit of providing happiness to all, we always forget one thing... "charity begins at home" ... one cannot provide happiness to all without hurting self.. and we forget that by hurting ourselves, we do greater harm to our loved ones than making them momentarily happy...

I know, I do not sound very convincing, there are lot of arguments against and in favour.. still all those arguments do not invalidate the basic question and the basic argument..

No one knows for sure for what lies in future, one things is sure, we all are dead in long term.. we might not be remembered too.. then to go through all these to make some one happy... Yeah.. I know the argument.. "I am Happy" but I also remember "Wrong Question"

Has that question become right.. if so do let me know too.. I do not have the strength to face that... tough choices remain... I know whatever the solutions, not everyone will be happy.. but then the saying goes 

"You can fool some people some time and even all people some time but you cannot fool all the people all the time" This brings a corollary

"You can provide happiness to some people for some time and even all people for some time but you cannot provide happiness to all the people all the time"

 Please ponder upon this..

Talk....

And how many talks are we gonna have!? I just love it..(no intentions/purposes here..) like said, no thinking,,just doing what makes you happy...
The only thought comes is, it should make other happy too.. Is it making happy?

Purpose (Again..)

This purpose just doesn't get resolved.. isn't it..? how many times is it to be analyzed.? justified..?

Do we not justify our reasons always.. or is it not that we reason out our justifications..? Does it take us anywhere? or it just tries to console ourselves, calm our nerves, which we do not want to get it fried..

We do everything for ourselves... even when the reason is that we are doing for others, it is nothing but justifying that our thought process is correct, reasoning is correct, our intentions are noble.. Actually, somewhere down inside, we believe that all this will come to an end.. but we justify that till it exists, it is the purpose..

The purpose has to be fundamental.. this makes me wonder, what should be characteristics of "Purpose"?

How do we define "purpose"? how do we know whether the "purpose" we say is actually a "purpose" and not just reason..

we will try to just do that..

Sketch...

Apologies for delay....


Quite a simple, caring and loving guy.. the wants are simple, no gigantic aspirations, ambitions but definitely zeal to improve, to look at things minutely.. loves to be heard..

One aspect of utmost importance, that is care for loved ones.. there is longing in eyes, searching for answers, may be realized lately that this is warmth, that was looking for.. desperately searches that in SOMEONE's eyes..

Attitude is cool.. search for warmth in eyes.. nice hug can do wonders [;)]

Gets engrossed quickly in work.. this can work great, if ONE can look in his eyes, he will be engrossed there too..
More to come still..keep coming..!!